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Blogs > phoenix71rebirth > Flamed by the Phoenix

Looking Back To Move Forward  

phoenix71rebirth 52F
181 posts
12/22/2015 12:31 am
Looking Back To Move Forward

Many off us spend our lives looking back
At all the misadventures that have speckled our existense
Somehow as painful as it is for some of us
We find an explainable comfort
In that traps of time and moments past

Why?
Likely to escape the unravelling of our time present
An escapism route to justify
Why our present isn't falling into place
Exactly as we intended it to

I know this too well.
I do it too often
Paralysed by the fear that the future is unknown
Beyond my control
I cannot predict its failure unless
It becomes my present

And so I find comfort in my minds prison cell
That in looking back I will justify
My presents inability to break free

2015 has been life changing in baby steps
Realization that whilst blood is thicker than water
Very often we become strangers
A few health scares that was a reckoning dawn
That for too long I have taken my body for granted
And it was now telling me enough
The openness and willingness to consider I may be ready
To embark on a quest so riddled with challenges
One to find love again

All in all I learnt that for me to move forward
I needed to unshackle myself from my past
Stand wide eyed and cognitive of my present

This newly acquired inner calm and peace
Has had an interesting effect
My nonexistent male attention quotient has shot up
Leaving me somewhat concerned and bemused
Concerned I might have set something in motion
I might not be quite ready for
Bemused that at this midlife point
Men are finding me attractive

But I am going to look forward
And live my new mantra
I believe in me
Coz if I don't
Nobody else will.

2016 will be better than the last 44years
It will be so because I believe it will
Challenges derailment
Come what may
I am experienced and confident
That no matter how many times
I fall flat on my face
I will stand up dust off
And look forward.

Hope each of you finds your secret happy always

pavforfun1000 56M  
6 posts
12/22/2015 9:51 pm

 Great words from your heart wish you all the best for 2016 and success in all you are aiming for both in work and social times


phoenix71rebirth replies on 12/24/2015 12:16 am:
Thank you much

newmarket_stud 64M

12/22/2015 11:00 pm

 Let's hope 2016 really does become "that special" year for you as you really deserve it to be.
I'm not going to look back but looking forward is scary.......... xxxxx


phoenix71rebirth replies on 12/24/2015 12:17 am:
Hugs ... all will be well.
Believe!
XxxX

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