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LDR ... bummer max!
LDR ... bummer max! Long distance relationship with a uniformed man is NOT only bummer max coz he's not around but out there chasing bad guys governments and greedy people create ... because it's his duty to protect his nation and its people but in so many levels. You are constantly waiting in hope that he's doing alright and fear that his luck might run out and then you have lost everything. You are up so high when he gets a chance to speak with after countless days of silence and then crushed when you know it be countless more days before you get to speak with him again. You know he loves you with his life and then you doubt it because if you were his life would he NOT be with you instead? And you get wretched for dishonouring his sacrifices. You are constantly having other men who tell you you are wasting your life and they are present for you and you say no they are wasting their time on you ... you are not interested ... and then you feel wrecked with guilt when you find a select few male friends know more about your present than he does because all these seem insignificant to clutter his limited time with. You have to constantly calculate time differences and get so mad you're waking up and his day is midway done and when you wrap up he if he's lucky might be grabbing 40winks. Most of all its bummer maximus because when you reach out at night and hoping he pulls you into his warm loving embrace you find his side empty and stinging hot tears flow and your heart squeezes itself in abject loneliness missing the one who holds your heart. And yes I miss him every single heartbeat ... waiting for him to come home. |
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that's a bummer indeed
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